"In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate"
I am very stressed right now. Partly, I am afraid of the daunting tasks that lies ahead of me.
I am in my final semester of my studies and I'm barely there at a cumulative GPA of 4.16 to qualify for an Second Class Upper Honours. Without that qualification, I cannot continue my Masters. -cries-
I would be fine if my subjects this year are as easy as the ones in the previous semester. But they are not.
I am in my final semester of my studies and I'm barely there at a cumulative GPA of 4.16 to qualify for an Second Class Upper Honours. Without that qualification, I cannot continue my Masters. -cries-
I would be fine if my subjects this year are as easy as the ones in the previous semester. But they are not.
1) Power, Politics and State.
This is as horrible as it's title sounds. I hate politics and I steer away from topics such as these but now I have no choice as it is the only module that I have yet to do. It is a difficult topic with a difficult Professor.
2) Then I have 2 history modules... one is the History of Civilizations, which I am looking forward to but I know it is content heavy so -sigh- Then there's Special Topics in History which is focused on the Chinese Dynasties and I really am not a fan of China's history. They have way too many dynasties and hundreds of years of histories to remember. =(
3) Then there's my Research Paper. My supervisor isn't even supervising me with anything. Basically, he just meets me once a year just to clarify certain things. ARGH. But then... I guess I have to be independent huh? But really... I do need some guidance.
Which brings me to the ultimate Guide- Allah. I feel so small and so afraid and I only can pray that He helps me along the way.
The purpose of me working so hard is for the knowledge and to make my parents proud. I want to achieve these for the sake of Allah...
May He open my heart and lend me the Ilham to achieve what I have set out to do.
Amin.
This is as horrible as it's title sounds. I hate politics and I steer away from topics such as these but now I have no choice as it is the only module that I have yet to do. It is a difficult topic with a difficult Professor.
2) Then I have 2 history modules... one is the History of Civilizations, which I am looking forward to but I know it is content heavy so -sigh- Then there's Special Topics in History which is focused on the Chinese Dynasties and I really am not a fan of China's history. They have way too many dynasties and hundreds of years of histories to remember. =(
3) Then there's my Research Paper. My supervisor isn't even supervising me with anything. Basically, he just meets me once a year just to clarify certain things. ARGH. But then... I guess I have to be independent huh? But really... I do need some guidance.
Which brings me to the ultimate Guide- Allah. I feel so small and so afraid and I only can pray that He helps me along the way.
The purpose of me working so hard is for the knowledge and to make my parents proud. I want to achieve these for the sake of Allah...
May He open my heart and lend me the Ilham to achieve what I have set out to do.
Amin.
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